being around

a narcissist as a kid

under her moods

& directions

you don’t notice

the oddness

thinking to yourself

this is just how it is

with this supposed carer

where the child

needs to ask for permissions

on everything you did

to find in later life

people don’t hold

those expectations

waiting for you

to just crack on

get on with things

you holding these

little things

needing permission

to live

never letting go