those hours caught

sitting in chairs

opposite strangers

talking to

counsellors therapists

fellow wetbrains

to get down to it

the nub of me

being the first

in this line of lunatics

self & other abusers

trying to control

others because

we were not in control

of ourselves

could not

shape our lives

the world

lashing out in rage

cutting deep

for revenge

finding my heart

rebuilding that & me

into a better shape

to be