here if not

but looking out

of the window

thinking hotter places

sun on my skin

even tho’ they’ve cut

melanomas out

bad habits run deep

missing the hola’s

tapas cold white wine

room warm reds

mountains & plains

i’m here now

doing the gotta’s

being here for her

knowing my thing

will come later

after the looking after

holding to obligations

the tyranny of others

these good habits run deep

this caring keeps me here

no regrets or recriminations

if sadnesses come