It was not

my idea

to be

saying goodbyes

though there’s

a thank you

somewhere

that catches my eye

don’t think

of asking

if I’ve yet

learned to cry

if I were young

you were

younger still

in those

different days

when we

were learning

and yet

I know my tears

of loss of you

your being around

but don’t ask me

to show you

yet

I want me

to show me

first