carrying this stone

of concrete & loss

never having the words

to tell you

how much you cost

keeping me stuck

in the loneliness

of not being heard

no ears around

to listen

while i tried to talk

of missing you

losing you

for reasons

no one could ever

would ever

let me know

& when we met again

the fear in my heart

kept me silent

in case you got gone again

which you did

when i needed you

most